Two more babies, in His time

Two more babies, in His time

This is one of those posts that even as I’m writing it, I’m not sure I’ll ever hit publish. It’s so personal. It’s so very special. It’s so near and dear to our hearts. It’s our whole world, because it’s the family we’ve prayed for.

It’s the news that we have two more frozen embryos. We have TWO MORE CHILDREN, ‘frozen in time’ in Denver, Colorado. They are 2 of 3 embryos we had from Noella’s IVF cycle. With our fourth round of IVF that we did in 2016, we were able to get five embryos. After the testing and biopsy we had done, three of those five were viable for implantation and pregnancy. One of them is two and a half now, sitting next to me in her pig tails and rain boots. We know the genders of our two remaining embryos! We (think) we know their names! And not a day goes by that they don’t cross our minds. They are answers to prayer, designed and created by God, part Shawn and part Jenn, part of our family, there since 2016, but not here yet…

I know. It’s a lot to process. It’s a bizarre thing, to know you have more children to come but trusting God for the right timing, a safe thawing and FET (Frozen Embryo Transfer), a healthy and safe pregnancy, birth and arrival.

As a writer, I love to open our world a little bit when we can. The thing I like about being open on this blog, and sharing the personal side, is that we can look back on it. I love coming across a blog post I wrote during a low or challenging season. Partly because it reminds me what it was like (not that I could ever forget), and partly because it shows me how far we’ve come (by God’s grace alone), and it makes where we are now that much sweeter.

A big part of me hopes that, in sharing this big and personal news, that we will all be able to see the faithful hand of God throughout the wait and process of these remaining two joining our family.
  One reason I chose way back when to start blogging about infertility was because I didn’t want to get to the end of it, with a baby on my hip, and no one have a clue about the tears, the loss, the gut wrenching years of praying, hoping, and waiting that we went through. I wanted people to see that God was faithful “even then”, and that he provided, in big and little ways.

And we turn to God, once again, and trust him with our future. A future that is unknown to us, there is still risk and chance involved in these embryo babies joining our family, but it’s a future that is known and crafted by God- the very creator of life.

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As was the case in the past with a personal blog post, there are some questions we may not answer. But as always, we welcome your prayers as we raise Noella and Shilo, and dream of the day the six of us can be together.


5 thoughts on “Two more babies, in His time

  1. Jenn, I will be praying for you and Shawn and your decision to have more babies in the near future. I enjoy the honesty you share in your blog.

    1. Thank you so much, Renae! It’s hard to trust God with the unknown and not knowing what will happen, but He knows and his plans are good. Thanks for your prayers! I hope your family is doing well.

  2. I pray for you all the time. God has been so good to give you two beautifl girls and I think you and Shawn will just keep praying that you will have the answer of what God has for you with the other embryos. You are blessed

  3. Jenn. . . .I thrilled for you and Shawn; I know the tears and the heartache. . . .God has blessed you and I feel certain he
    will bless you again! I will pray for you, Shawn & the girls. While my story was different, being blessed with an adopted son with mental issues. He is the love of my life. . .something most can’t understand. We can now correspond via letters; he is doing okay. . . .just know that there is a reason for God’s will. . . .you will remain blessed. . . love and miss you . . . Cheryl Lambert

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